i just got absolutely DESTROYED for a scholarship interview just now so bad that they cut it short. im SUCH A FAILURE.
even though i got into nus, thats nothing worth flexing, you can literally throw a stone up into the air and you'll likely hit someone whose been to nus. even getting a place in nus law, that just seems so unimpressive and bare minimum.
i want to get a government scholarship or go overseas or be a valedictorian, only then will i feel like ive done enough to not be a loser.
looking at friends go to harvard, get PSC or presidents' scholarship so effortlessly and as someone who was their classmate and worked together with them, where did it all go wrong? am i just destined to a life of mediocrity?