in my relationship i force myself do a lot of things i dont want to do and i honestly hate it. something something "bare minimum" something something "the bar is so low"
for instance, after night classes (normally they end at 9.30) i try to send her back home to jurong and then have to rush back to the last train back to my own home in the northeast.
like be so for real, i secretly dont want to send her home because its a 2h round trip back and forth and i reach home past midnight.
but i suck it up and do it anyway because "its your job as a boyfriend". like just go home yourself man.
and sometimes i just have the itch to tell her to pay for her own meals and dates because omg i have to plan and pay and she just needs to show up.
i have to work extra to teach tuition and even skip meals so that i can pay for this stuff and i genuinely think that some stuff are really a waste of money like jellycats.
im so sick and tired of doing stuff just because its expected that a boyfriend should do them. im just so tired of sacrificing my time, energy and money feeling forced to do smt i dont want to do