Left Outside in the Dark After Fighting With Boyfriend

Boyfriend and I fought. I went to his house in hopes for a quick talk as I still have class in the early morning. I travelled across from one side of sg to the other. He won’t allow me to enter and he just leaves me sitting outside in the dark for hours. Idk why I have been trying so hard for a guy who only loves and cares for me when it is convenient for him to do so. I am not the perfect person, but no matter what, I would never leave someone I claim to love sitting outside when there’s still a whole day ahead of her (I have school and he doesn’t). Putting this out here so that I remember how I feel now. It’s so sad because I feel bad and I know my parents would be so sad if they knew what I had to go through for this guy